My dear fetus, if you ever read this please know that I love you so much and I love carrying you inside me, mummy is not complaining, I just need to vent a little. (hug)
If you ask King about the reasons he fell in love with me, one of the first things he’ll say is my energy, enthusiasm and the fact that I talk non-stop (7aadii gargaa :p). But now with my pregnancy I feel so calm and mellow, I used to blurt out every feeling and thought in my head, while now I just daze off into mummy land. I don’t know if its the decrease in my energy level and the messed up hormones that make me not able to talk or maybe I have unconscious fears in me that I’m scared to let out.
I wish we had nice parks in kuwait where I can go with King and just sit there. I used to LOOOVE going out! You can’t imagine meskeen King I used to constantly nag him to go out to restaurants and cafes, I used to plan days if not weeks ahead on what activities we could do, jotting down dates of events and constantly reminding him. But now I just wana sit at home all the time. I’m sure even my best friends notices how boring I became. Just the thought of me having to get dressed and put makeup on exhausts me.
I hope things do get better and I get back to my old self soon. I don’t want to fall into this pattern and become this boring person I personally hate.